We Made A Decision

Our Decision

Back in January, I put up a blog post about my pregnancy with my son, and how I wasn’t sure if I wanted another baby.  It’s a huge decision, and I have been thinking about it on and off for years now.

My husband and I went back and forth, talking about the pros and cons of having another child.  We finally came to a decision.  We decided to go for it!  This isn’t happening RIGHT now though.  There are a lot of things that need worked out before that can happen.

In October of last year, I talked to my Endocrinologist about having another baby, and she basically told me “You better do it soon!” Ugh.  That’s not stressful or anything!  No pressure.  So, it has been in the back of my mind since then.  It’s a big decision, especially for a Type 1 Diabetic.

Back in October, when I got the go ahead from my doctor, my A1c was 6.5%.  She said the lower I got it, the better, but it would be okay to try.  Well, my husband and I weren’t ready.  We still aren’t!  But, after that doctor’s visit, I decided to take control of my health.  That’s when I decided to go on a Ketogenic diet, start working out and try to shed some of my excess weight.  I was also hoping that I would be able to lower my A1c as well.

Since life rarely works out the way you plan, that didn’t happen!  I have lost 25lbs and countless inches since October, but my A1c isn’t better.  I went back to the doctor in February, and it was 6.7%.  I’m not headed in the right direction! I was having a LOT less lows and highs, so my blood sugar was more stable.  But still, my A1c wasn’t low enough.

I wasn’t happy in February about my A1c, but it just made me more determined to get it down.  Everything was going well!  My blood sugars were great, and were averaging about 125-130.  Awesome!  I got approved for the t:slim, and everything seemed to be going according to plan.  Until…BOOM!  Diabetes said, “Not so fast!  You know things aren’t going to be THAT easy, right?!”

Over the last 2 months, my blood sugars have been ALL over the place.  I have no clue why.  It has been so frustrating, because I don’t know what I’m doing wrong.  I haven’t changed anything!  I am still eating Keto, exercising 4 days per week, etc.  Nothing is different!  But yet, my sugars are.  Some days I run high all day, and no amount of insulin will bring it down.  It’s almost like my insulin is water, and does nothing.

I feel so much pressure to get my A1c down, because my husband and I want to expand our family, and I’m not sure what to do at this point.

I feel helpless, and I feel like Diabetes is winning.

It’s not fair that I try SO hard, but fail anyway.  When I got pregnant with my son, my A1c was 7.8%.  Not ideal at all! I don’t want to do that again.  Since I will be 31 in September, and I’m going on 21 years as a Type 1 Diabetic, I feel like I’m running out of time!

New Health Problems?

For the first 4 months I was on Keto, I felt amazing.  I had endless energy, my blood sugars were stable for the first time in years, and I was dropping weight.  Then all of a sudden, something changed.

I haven’t lost any weight in almost 2 months, and no matter what I do, the number on the scale won’t budge.  My hair has been falling out in clumps!  If I even touch my hair, it falls out.  Taking a shower and washing my hair is awful, because I feel like I will be bald when I step out of the shower!  My nails are very brittle.  I have never had brittle nails before.  When they do grow, they bend and peel.  It’s not a pretty sight.  The energy I used to have has been zapped too.

This might be TMI, but my cycle has been really weird.  It has been pretty predictable for months, and now all of a sudden it feels like hormones are ruling my life!  My insulin requirements are changing almost daily.

Usually, when something is wrong, my blood sugar will be the first to let me know.  The fact that my sugar has been so hard to control lately, on top of all the other things going on, I have a feeling something is wrong.

So, I decided to make an appointment with my general practitioner.  I go there this coming Friday.  Hopefully I will get some answers.  I had thyroid issues last year, so I’m wondering if maybe that’s whats going on.  Who knows!?

All I know is, something needs to change.  Maybe when I figure this out, my blood sugar will calm down and I can get back on track.  Right now, I don’t feel in control of my own body, and that’s an awful feeling.

In the meantime, all I can do is keep my head up and keep fighting.  After all, there is no other choice, right?

If anyone has any tips or tricks for me, I would LOVE to hear them!  I’m desperate! Lol It’s amazing that after almost 21 years of this disease, Diabetes still surprises me! Ugh.

 

 

 

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